Random Musings of my Teenage Mind...

And Now I Return.

Valerie S. — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 03:50:21 +0000

Hello blog!

Feels like it’s been forever since i’ve updated this, maybe about five months at least. I’ve been really busy, ive started dancing again, I’m concentrating a lot on my artwork, and stressing over grades as usual. Anyways, I have about a year and three quarters left till college applications, and yes i AM thinking that far ahead, so I must get working on my artists portfolio intensively. But i’m actually for once not here to rant about boys or grades or artwork, i’m actually here to announce that from now on i’ll start updating more and more, but they will NOT be about my life. I’m thinking about starting to blog about fashion and art, even though I am still quite young and a bit inexperienced in the high fashion world. However I feel that there are not a lot of people close to me to whom I can express my opinions on designers and clothing on, so i’m taking it to the internet. I don’t expect my little blog to get anywhere or get ME anywhere, i’m purely doing this for fun. So, if one of you stumbles upon this one lovely day while trolling through WordPress, I hope you like my commentary, and note that I am in no way an experienced blogger professional, or employed fashion designer. I’m just a sixteen year old with a “passion for fashion” and love of the arts.

So goodbye for now, i’m thinking my first topic will have something to do with NYC fashion week, which is going on as I write this. It will actually probably be more like a rant rather than an opinion blog about the runway shows because I am not in attendance, but I hope it’s interesting anyways.

- VS.

Blawg Post. D:<

Valerie S. — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 03:26:25 +0000

I’m so sick of people and their shit.

like legit. I’m seriously hating the world and all of it’s bullshit right now. I wish I had someone there for me. Someone more than just a friend. I love my friends to death and they’re really amazing, but sometimes I need more.

Basically, i’m having a shitty week.

-Valerie.

Ahem, Everybodys Out To Get Me.

Valerie S. — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 00:58:56 +0000

School started. It feels like we’re way into the year with the amount of work, when really we’ve only been in school for 6 days. Funn.

Anyway, the reason I decided to take a break from my IMs and half-studying for my chemistry quiz (hehe) is because I need to rant, as usual. So today, one of my good friends who’s new to our school comes up to me and announces that people have been coming up to him and telling him not to be friends with me. Okay, they didn’t say THAT, but still. Apparently people in my grade think i’m this huge bitch. And alright, I admit, I can be really judgemental at times and maybe not in the best mood, but so is every teenage girl, right? The thing is, besides like a few good friends, and my best friend, I don’t really have friends in my grade that much, most of them are either juniors or seniors. Back in middle school I got into a lot of shit with some of the girls, and I guess their oppinions of me just kindof stuck with them. But the point is, i’m really only mean/ a bitch, if you’re a bitch to me first. I’m usually never mean to someones face unless they start stuff with me first. It just bothers me that someone will have enough nerve to go up to someone else and say that. Ehhh, maybe i’m just being over dramatic.

Ohhh, and the other half of my grade thinks i’m a super slut. Which i’m not. Yes, i’ve had older boyfriends, and yes, i’ve hooked up with a few guys, but seriously? Compared to some other people, i’m actually pretty angelic. Maybe they just think like that because I can be really out there, and i’m not afraid to talk about sex or make sexual jokes. I don’t know. The slut thing really isn’t an issue that much though because I got my bestfriend to set them straight haha.

Enough ranting? Yes please.

Rawr?

Valerie S. — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 03:22:47 +0000

Merrr hello. I haven’t updated in probably several months, sorry blog ): but i kindof maybe forgot about this thing.

Anyway, summers been pretty great so far. Went to europe, the beach, Warped tour, hung out with some pretty awesome people, etc.

Speaking of awesome people; So I met this boy a few nights ago. And well, I don’t want to like him, but I do :/. He seems like everything i’d like in a person (good taste in music, style, educated, nice, sweet, etc). But he’s a few years too old, is in college, has a job, AND is dating another guy…someone I go to school with. And I guess it’s okay for him to date younger people, and I like older guys too…but it’s like we’re living in different worlds. He has a job, goes to college, doesn’t have curfew. And me? I have homework and high school and all that stuff. I guess this wouldn’t be so hard if he didn’t show interest back. But he did, oh boy oh boy, he did. Holding my hand, complimenting me, getting me a drink, constantly looking at me, telling me I smelled nice when I hugged him, putting his arms around my waist. The whole picture. But then again, I noticed he’s a pretty flirty guy, so maybe he acts this way with all the girls he’s friends with? He didn’t even reply to my wall post. Well mehhh. Dilema.

Off The Record.

Valerie S. — Wed, 03 Jun 2009 02:14:51 +0000

I’m so sick of people telling me that i’m only fifteen and that I need to wait for “love”. Whenever I tell someone that I don’t believe in love because of my own experiences (not to mention all the divorce and breakup rates in America) they always say that i’m too young to know. Well guess what. I want to “fall in love” now. While i’m a teenager. Not when i’m older, and supposedly smarter. I want to experience young love. To have rules to break, curfews to betray. I want to feel the rush of adolescence when i’m with that one boy. I want it to be free. I want to have classes to skip, windows to sneak out of, and records to break. I don’t want to “fall in love” when i’m older. I’ll be too sane then (: It won’t be as dangerous or as fun. It will be different, more adult. And theres nothing wrong with that. I just want my first love, first time, whatever, to be…well…now. While i’m living it up being a reckless teen. I mean, I’m not stupid or anything, and I try to make good choices and all; but the teenage years all always memorable and fun. I want to sit on the roofs of cars, eat junk food and drink energy drink ’till I puke. (well not really puke but okay.) I just want it now.

Umbrellas Are Not For The Insane.

Valerie S. — Tue, 02 Jun 2009 01:13:37 +0000

My life is officially in the slumps. Want to know why? Of course you do. Well here goes.

There is a picture of tits with my previous boyfriends name written on them floating around the web. Everyone thinks they’re mine. I swear to god i’m being paranoid , but he ignored me today.
I’m still not over him. It’s killing me slowly.
My grades are slowly slipping. If I don’t like straight As on my exams, my parents will flip a shit.
My whole family is attempting to convince me that my future dreams are stupid and if I follow them then I will become a failure. Go figure.
I miss dance. A lot.
My summer plans are ruined. I have no idea what i’m doing or when or where. I hate people sometimes.
Everyone is pairing up in couples and i’m all alone.
I’m not tan, nor do I have the body I want.
I’m really still not over him.

Currently Listening To: Two Shoes – The Cat Empire.

April Showers Bring Spring Flowers…NOT.

Valerie S. — Thu, 07 May 2009 02:55:40 +0000

Okay, it’s may 6th, and it’s been pouring rain here in maryland for like the past week. What happened to the whole ‘rain in april, sunshine and flowers in may’ thought? I have no idea. Well, april was sunny and some days it went up to like 90 degrees. And now, look. It’s may 6th, and the past week it’s rained every single day with high in the low 60′s. I hate this state and it’s topsy-turvy weather. Is that even a word?

anyway, that is NOT the point of this blog. The point is…..MY ART SHOW IS HERE! Yes, I know, I am just booming with excitement. So yeah, my painting will be hanging in this theatre/studio place for the whole month of may. So if anyone reading this lives in Maryland, come see?!

Location Information:
Kentlands Arts Barn
311 Kent Square Rd
Gaithersburg, Md 20878
hours of operation:
Mon. and Tues. Closed
Wed. through Fri. 10 a.m. – 5 p.m.
Sat. and Sun. 10 a.m.- 2 p.m.
*they’re sometimes open in the evening also when there is an event/class going on*

I’ll Spit On Your Expectations.

Valerie S. — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 04:07:30 +0000

Second post in one day? Well at least I actually have something to say in this one. I’ve come to a realization. I’m not going to live up to any one’s expectations. Only my own. I’m sick of running from places and people and opportunities. I’m sick of trying trends and caring what people think of me. I’ve actually realized this a long time ago, but tonight it just clicked into place for some reason. I will wear what I want. I will color, style, or cut my hair that way I want. I will listen to the type of music that I like. And if people don’t like it, that’s their problem. They’re not the ones wearing or listening to it. I’m going to try not to care about what people say about me. I haven’t really been paying attention to it before this, but now it’s all going to be like white noise. I’m going to shop in places like Hot Topic but as well as Forever 21. It’s what I want. Yeah, i’ll mix punk and glamorous things. So what? As for guys? I’m going A-sexual. Well, not actually; because that would mean I would reproduce with myself and that’s not really what i’m going for here. I’m just not going to stress about it too much. Yes, I still really like the guy who broke my heart (not literally) about two months ago. I love him I like him, but i’m just going to have to deal with and live with it.

Okay, that’s enough os spilling my heart on the Internet.On a different note, i’m really excited for summer in two months. Especially trips and concerts and such. Warped Tour ’09? Hell yes.

Bands I want to see there: 3oh!3 (<3), Bad Religion, Breathe Carolina, Chiodos (<3), Madina Lake, Escape The Fate, The Maine, The Devil Wears Prada, and more…

Currently listening to: Lover – Devendra Banhart

This Is What Happens When I Mess Up My Sleep Cycle.

Valerie S. — Sun, 12 Apr 2009 21:45:53 +0000

Why do I write these pointless things? I guess it has something to do with the fact that it’s Easter and I only woke up at 3:30 pm. Sigh. Ohh, the relaxing rejuvenating days of spring break. Sadly, only about one left. Time to go back to the hectic, frustrating daily lives of high school. Lame, i know. Well anyway, Spring Break ’09? Quite an adventure. Spent most of it lounging around our town with my friend. A couple trips to DC, to Bethesda, etc. Mostly just acting like a obnoxious teenager. News flash! I’m blonde! Well..ish. Like the bottom half of my hair. Ah, my father will murder me when he sees it. Oh well :). Life’s short. Die fast. Ha. I’m feeling very melancholy at the moment. Mostly lonely. It’s one of those “gah I hate being single” time in my life. It’s so strange. When i’m completely fine with being single and out there, a perfect guy lands right in my lap and i’m the happiest person alive. Then, of course, being me, I get dumped. And now i’m lonely and wanting someone. Why does it always happen like this? Now, I dream about this kid like every night and I think I drive my friends crazy whenever I mention his name. Well guess what? It’s hard as shit to get over someone. I wish I did not have to go to school on Tuesday. I don’t think I can take it anymore. I stress so much over grades, and then I have about a million other things going on in my life at the moment. I never have time to practice drums, even though I really love it. And don’t even get me started about art. I have not done any creative projects on my own in a million years. Deviantart probably misses me :P. But on the bright side, I framed my painting yesterday. It looks wonderful. And my art show is coming up in a few weeks. So exited. I love the attention people give me when they compliment my art. Wow that kindof sounds a little selfish, but at least i’m honest about it. Okay, enough ranting about stuff for now…… No, one more pathetic thought. I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU. I will get over this. fml. (:

It wont let me upload music at the moment ): so here; Currently playing: Boys Don’t Cry – The Cure.

Windy Spring Nights.

Valerie S. — Sun, 05 Apr 2009 04:00:13 +0000

So spring break just started. So far, decent. All we did in Russian School was watch a movie about the Soviets during WWII..not so bad. It had sex in it, so it’s automatically better (: I like sex scenes, except watching them with people other than your best friends or significant other is awkward. Ha.

Anyway, after that went downtown with a friend. It was nice, we rode this antique looking trolly thing around the city a couple times. It felt very…movie like I guess. Then we walked around, ate, and finally we’re able to get on the roof of this movie theater. Epic success. I also saw a certain ex…sigh. In a way it was nice knowing where he was and who he was with, well, more importantly who he WASN’T with. hehe. But it kindof sucked, because then I kept thinking about him throughout the whole night…bleh.

Enough of this hour to hour account of my day, i’m going to bed.

Night <3